I may not sound like the ladies of Mary Mary, Jessie J., or others that sound so beautiful and I may not have a recording contract or sing in many venues. Friends, I sing because HE gave me a wonderful gift to give back to HIM. When I sing I go to a place where God and I are alone together and I can touch HIM and smell HIM and be w/ HIM in such an intimate way that only HE and I know and understand. If no one else hears or even acknowledges my singing, it's okay. HE is why I sing.
Isn't it funny how we ask God for something and he gives it to you and you don't know what do with what He's given you? I've been asking for a couple of days off since I have been busting my butt at work and haven't taken a personal day off since the day before Christmas Eve 2010. Now I have a whole day off (due to snow and ice) and I just don't know what to do with myself.
I am so trying to relax and don't have a clue how to relax and not think about whether, or not, I'm going to get into trouble for not being able to go to work today. I know it's stupid, but my work ethics are very strong and with all the crappy things that went on before a couple of my co-workers quit (and one dismissed), I feel as though I'm being scrutinized for every little thing by PHS management. Our new manager, however, (Ms. Lisa), has been more than a blessing. She has definitely been an answer to prayer. So why am I stressing about not being at work? Probably because a new employee started about 3 and a half weeks ago and I'm used to working my fingers to the bone to make sure things get done.
I'm like that with my family and ministry, as well. More so when it comes to my family. Little things that don't get done just get my goat. I want things covered. I'm so used to doing, doing, doing and not really taking time out for myself. When I do decide to do something for myself I tend to feel guilty. GEEZ! Therefore, I'm going to grab a pen and paper and write down some thoughts that I should've done months ago and spend some time with my husband, daughter and dogs. I've asked God to overcome me and my family with ALL of His blessings imaginable. Well, it's starting to flow and I'm at a loss for words. I can hardly wait to see what else He's going to pour on me and my family.
